A lot has happened since then - I'm now officially graduated as a Civil Engineer, my parents and Siew Yee visited me, attended the ceremony and stayed for 6 weeks in Australia, Nadal won another Grandslam, Victoria has now lesser trees (depressing), but Bush in America is still standing (devastated), I've finally seen the New Year Eve's fireworks at Sydney Harbour, I'm few months older, I've owned a Civic, spent my first CNY here in down under, my affectionateness towards my dearie has increased, and I'm getting very eager to stay on in Aussie land!
It has now become my constant 'nightmare', I supposed, whenever I try to make a dicision whether to stay on here or go back to Malaysia. I've tried to imagine how my life will be if I go back to the boleh land, and I can say just by imagining it is already quite nerve-wrecking.
With my proffesion, I know I will have to start all over again, no matter how experienced am I after working for several years in Australia.
-I know my working hours will be long - construction work in Malaysia is usually 10/7, conservatively.
-I know I will have to spend hell lots of money just to get a Kancil (with the same ammount of money I can probably owned a Camry in Aus assuming RM1:AUS$1).
-My starting salary will not be as 'lofty' as what I'm getting now.
-I can NEVER have the luxurious benefits that Coffey (my company) is currently providing. Coffey would fully sponsor my Master tuition fee if I ever want to do it.
-The quality of life of my next generation will be different - have to stay at house all the time to stay away from ever increasing kidnapping, rapping and robbing.
-The quality of my life will be different - I will have to save all my earnings and send my children oversea for education to widen their exposure (I know it is not REALLY necessary but I never trust the education system in Boleh land, please agree with me - it is a fact).
-My health will be different - have to breath in the romantic haze from Indo once a year (if lucky, otherwise twice, thrice?)
-Unlike Australian government (giving out AUS$ 21 000 for first home buyers at this economic crunch period), the Boleh land government wont do a shit other than dropping a few milli bucks on the petrol.
-And the list goes on...
I know I have been coping well with this over the 18 years or so when I was back in the Boleh land. Back then I didn't have a choice but to cope. But now possessing an Australia PR visa, I can very much dictate/decide/change my life in the future. With all the possible dramas that I stated above, it seems that the dicision whether to stay on or not is not difficult to make. But infact, it is atually not!
The only and ONLY reason I'm still refusing to make a call on the dicision is my parents and my dearie. Is this the place they are meant to be? Is this the life they wanted? Is this the best possible solution to have a better life? Is this a wise choice?
Then I look at my 2 topnotch grandpas. They both came to Malaysia all the way from China almost 70-80 years ago, leaving behind their families, friends (wonder is there any back then), home, everything and never look back. Only for a reason - to have (or try to have) a better life! And I am 100% sure if they didnt make a move back then, I am probably now working as a farmer or hawker! Forget about writing in English.
With the same intention but different era, if they can do it back then, why can't I? Why can't we?
The clock continues to tick......
