Uni Started Again

After 3 weeks of winter break uni started again. I told myself I have to work really hard this semester as I did quite badly last semester and I wish I can regain the results I achieved last year

Sorry & Never Again

As we were having our winter break 3 of my friends from Perth, Adelaide and Melbourne came to Sydney last week. Although we haven’t met each other for just 4 months but still feel great to revitalise with each other. Yet this might be the only chance to meet each other in Australia and visit around as everyone has to pursue their own studies very soon.

Everything was pretty fine till the second day of the visit. We rented a car and went to the well known Blue Mountain. On the way back we had a really bad accident, but luckily no one was hurt. Thank God. I was the driver and perhaps drove like an idiot and therefore caused the accident to happen.

I was driving at the speed of average 120 to 130 km/h where the limit is only 60 or 70 km/h, and overtaking cars at the double line. Crazy huh… Although I was driving relatively fast, but I still managed to control the car quite well until a shallow turn. The turning was fairly small angled but right after the turn there was a divider right at the middle of the road. I saw it but the car was too fast and I didn’t have enough time to stop. The car hit the divider at the speed of around 100 km/h and the car lost control and spined for around 5 to 6 rounds then hit a bus stop and then a tree before it stopped. Bloody hell…

Everyone was really calm and luckily no one was hurt but the car was seriously damaged. 3 of the doors were stuck and every one of us had to go out from a door. Yet, I only realised that there was a police car following us for more than 20km. The first feeling was relief that everyone is ok and followed by regret (shouldn’t have done this). In less than 5 minutes time 3 police cars, 2 fire engines and an ambulance arrived. After the testimony was made and settled the things we walked to the nearest train station and took a train back to Sydney.

I was really really regretted of what I have done. I ruined the whole trip and end up walking in the city the next day. All of them ask me not to blame myself but I still really angry with myself. I was known to be a very rational person and tend to think reasonably among my friends. I haven’t get involve in any kind of road accident before this but now end up having the biggest accident all time among my friends. They were really kind to me and offered to share all the expenses. Talking about repairing expenses… the amount could reach Aussie Dollar 20000… try not to think about that, at the moment…

Whatever… I will take this as my bestest rebuke. Thousand apologies to those who love me and supported me so much… SORRY & NEVER AGAIN…

uhlala

My Uni

My Uni - University of Sydney



The Great Hall - The Graduation Hall

Jaded

Finally the exam is over… and kick start my hectic winter holiday. Feel absolutely jaded after studying for the last couple of weeks, yet there are subjects that got a high possibility to fail. Whatever… don’t want to think about it now.

My brother is coming over here later today. It has been a year since we last met each other back in last year winter holiday so there must be heaps to catch up with each other. Later in the holiday there will be 3 different group of friends are coming to Sydney as well. Thus I will be busy bringing friends around to visit interesting places. However me myself is organizing a trip to go around New South Wales continent with my friends over here. I can imagine how hectic is my holiday but I am really looking forward to it. Whatever… just want to set myself free and enjoy my holiday.

Exams

Phew...this blog has been desserted for a while already. Busy with uni stuffs recently. Exams are starting this coming Tuesday, or I should say tomorrow. I've got a lot of stuffs in my mine wanna write but just don't have time to write. Wait till the exam is over, then this blog will be alive again.

The Reason is YOU

I'm not a perfect person

As many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is You

I've been regreting since that day. I've nothing else can do but regret. Only if, and only if, I got a chance again, I swear everything would be different. The reason is YOU, really just because of you, not anyone else. However, life still goes on... and I cant do a thing but keep faith...

Show me justice, Indonesia

The Schapelle Corby drug smuggling case has become an issue to discuss nationwide or may be worldwide. The verdict of 20 years jail sentence for an Australian in Indonesian jail is the first time in history. Many things have been brought up to talk about since the verdict on last Friday. Every radio channel, television channel, every Aussie has been following the case for the past 8 months. Even the Prime Minister himself also made some comment on it. 20 years of jail sentence to a person for guilty of carrying 4.1 kilograms of drug into Indonesia… is it too harsh? or it is too lenient? Just right? In my opinion, if she is really guilty I think the verdict is fair enough or may be a bit too lenient because drugs really torn the society. If she is innocent then obviously it is harsh rite.

However, I believe she is innocent and I really feel for her. For me, a 27 years old student with a crystal clear history get caught at the Bali airport for carrying 4.1 kilograms of drugs is a bit astonish. It can be the baggage handlers or whoever but I don’t think is her. When one of the officer wanted to open her bag she did said “I have some…”. This make the judge doubt about her innocent and that was the only most solid ‘evident’ that they got to charge her. But actually she hadn’t finished the sentence. It can be “I have some food”, “I have some clothes”, “I have some whatever…”.

What made me even more furious was in Indonesia, you are guilty and you have to prove yourself innocent. I suppose that the law should be the other way round where you are innocent and the opposition must prove that you are guilty. Furthermore, there isn’t any jury in the court and the judges made all the decision. When Corby’s defending team made a request to check the fingerprints on the drug bags, the request was turned down by the court. And yet, the Bali bombing suspect was just sentence to 4 years jail, surprise??? From here, I doubt there is any justice in this Corby case.

This obsession can happen to anyone of us. So please lock all your luggage and bags when you are travelling. When any of the officer wants to open your bag, if you are clean and innocent just let them open. Let’s pray for this young lady to succeed her appeal.

What is happenning to me

I was in bad mood recently. Did badly in the previous few quizzes. What happened to me? Have to work harder now. Strictly studying.

Too Young?!

LOVE is a delicate four letter word and always has to come with the word RELATIONSHIP. People start ‘liking’ one another and start a relationship in their teens where they normally get giggle by parents or older generation, generally with something like “you are still too young to know what love is all about”. Parents will then try their ‘best’ to stop the relationship so that their children can ‘concentrate’ in studies. But never the less, the children will try their ‘best’ to continue their relationship as ‘surreptitiously’ as possible. Complicated but true huh???

In my twenties, I would agree with most of the parents’ perception. Though, I will still encourage teens to have at least one experience to have a relationship. Only by experience, teens can discover the complication of a relationship and they will start learning from there. Eventually, after a few years of time most, not all, of these puppy love-relationships will break up. They start to have their own personality and realize that their partner isn’t who they are looking for. They will be more aware of their next relationship.

So, we need to learn and have experience during our teens rather than 30s right? Who knows it might turn out an eternality first love? LOVE is not TOO YOUNG for anyone.

Tighty

There was this pregnant woman wearing a pair of jeans with a bra top walking around in a shopping centre, showing off her big round belly. I was like.. oh yeah… the baby must be very uncomfortable… I thought jeans are a bit too tight for a pregnant woman, isn’t it? Wouldn’t it affect the growth of the baby? I figure out people nowadays likes to wear tight stuffs, no matter is pants, shirts or whatever… just has to be tight, in order to emphasise their body figure. For those with well body figure I would definitely agree it will be nice. But for those who are toooooo bony or toooooo plump…er… please look how you look alike in the mirror before walking out from your house. For myself…. erm… I will only wear tight stuffs when I make sure that my tummy is not able to be seen…haha :)

Religion

I saw quite a number of people wearing t-shirt with “Jesus Week” printed at the back of it this week. I wonder it is world wide ‘celebration’ or just my uni’s Christian association doing it. Anyway, I got mad at one of them. NO DIRESPECT to any other Christians, if there is any, thousands apologizes. One of those wearing “Jesus Week” t-shirt guy approached me and asked some really ‘ahem’ questions. Sounds something like that…

Guy: Hi, how are you?
Me: Good. Yourself?
Guy: Not too bad. Are you a Christian?
Me: Nope. I am a Buddhist.
Guy: Do you want to come to our church this weekend to ….
Me: (Politely)No… I am not interested. Thanks anyway.

I was then trying to leave as I had to rush to the train station to catch a train. Then, this guy started to piss me off.

Guy: Do you know you are going to hell if you are not a Christian?
Me: Excuse me… I beg your pardon?!!??
Guy: Ya.. do you know that Satan made others religion to misguide human?
Me: With the things I’ve done I am very sure that I am going to heaven!!! How about you???Have you confessed all your sin??? You better confess it this weekend as you just curse me to hell.

Actually I didn’t mean to say that to anyone but that fella really pissed me off. I don’t think that’s the correct way to convince people to go to church, right? I respect every single religion in the world. May be what that guy mentioned was written in a bible, or it is a real fact in Christianity, but sometimes I think people should respect each other, especially when it comes to religion. Erm… just wanted to make a point here – respect others’ religion.

Grandpa...I miss you...

Got back my structural mechanics quiz today. Felt so piss off with myself. If not those stupid silly mistake I would have got a full mark, which everybody dreams for. Anyway I was literally exhausted and couldn’t bother to do those tutorial questions. So I left the tutorial session early and went back to my home. After this hectic week, couldn’t wait to lie on my lovely bed and have a good sleep. While I was walking towards the train station, I saw a Chinese old man walking in the opposite direction with me across the road with his walking stick. Right at that moment my grandpa’s countenance appeared in my mind…

My grandpa (mum’s father) ‘was’ really an incredible man; I would say every single members of the family idolize him so much. He passed away 3 years ago with 93 years of age. I really miss him so much… Back in few years ago he made a request to me and I feel so guilty and always will be because I didn’t full fill his request. That time he was staying with us in my house. One afternoon he asked me to play guzheng (the Chinese orchestra instrument) because he loved watching and listening to me playing all the time and most of time I would have play for him. But that particular day I was very tired as I just came back from school and I was busy preparing the chinese orchestra concert. That was the very last time he asked me to play and the very last time to stay at our house. Till now I still feel pretty guilty…

Like many others, he came to Malaysia, Alor Setar, from china when he was 13 without a cent in his pocket. He then started his first ever job in a restaurant and kick off his implausible journey. He saved some money and start doing his own ‘business’, which is selling ice cream by the road side couple of years later. I couldn’t imagine how much he was earning that time such that he managed to put his money together and buy a shop houses. He ran a business as a whole sellar of rice, red bean, soya bean… all those grain thing la. Slowly by slowly he gained his fame, status, money, and start building a wonderful family. He was once among the top ten richest people in Alor Setar. During the peak of his time, he used to own 30 lorries. What amaze me the most was this typical china man whom never been to any kind of school before invented a telegraph for business purposes. He also made his own furniture like chairs, tables and even modified a clock to a toy motor boat…. Interesting huh…really intelligent!!! He sent all of his 10 children to overseas for further studies and at that time it was very rare and not every ‘typical china man’ would allow their children to go abroad.

Grandpa… I miss you so much…

“虽然您走了，但感觉中，在天之灵，您仍会祐我、护我，我也会常常惦记着您”

LOTR - The Exhibition

LOTR - The Exhibition

I went to this LOTR exhibition during the Easter break 2 weeks back. Actually I wasn’t intended to go at all because the entrance ticket is quite pricey, I think it was nearly 30 aussie dollar per head. But then my auntie went and kept telling me how impress she is and try to persuade me to go. She convinced me and I made up my mind to pay a visit with my friends.

The exhibition was really really superior and it amazed me so much. I thought it was a once-a-life-time experience to go behind the scene of this world famous motion picture trilogy. It took them 3 years just to imagine and put together the settings, buildings, weapons and costumes which described in the novel, just in words. If I wasn’t wrong they spent 8 solid years to film this trilogy. The costumes and weapons stunned me the most as they really made all the costumes and let the actors wear them so that the movements are more authentic. I think there were more than 5000 pieces of them. Guess what… the total weight of the costume of those Rohan warriors is almost 10kg and these warriors are actually all ladies whom are the trainer of the horses used in the movie. Heaps still to describe and it is a disgrace that I couldn’t take any picture inside the exhibition.

After all, it is really payoff for the entrance ticket. I think the exhibition is going on around the world from country to country. So if it happens to stop at the nearest city around you, please don’t hesitate to go. Believe me, even you are not a LOTR fans, you will still like it, very much perhaps.

The Entrance

Mutating to panda

It has been a while since I post the last thingy. Really busy with my uni stuffs in this couple of weeks. Just now I was counting the number of assignments need to be submitted and quizzes held in these 3 weeks and I couldn’t believe it myself… 9 assignments and 3 quizzes!!! Huh.. Unbelievable… I am still alive... After numerous of sleepless night in the ‘battle field’ my face now looks literally awful… pimples start popping out all over my forehead, moustache and beard grown lushly covering my chin and in the process of mutating to a panda…@_@

Give me a break~~

I am having a week of mid semester break now. But for me, it is not a ‘mid semester’ ‘break’. Actually we just finished 3 weeks of classes and then we have this ‘mid semester’ break and there isn’t any break after this week till end of June. So this is not a ‘mid semester’ break as it is written in the uni calendar. Even though lectures will be starting only on next Monday, I already start counting how many days left before this ‘mid semester’ ‘break’ ends. There are 4 assignments and 1 quiz due right after the ‘break’. Just done half of them, haven’t started the other half. Further more, I am a bit behind most of the lectures and need to do some revision to catch up. I cant see my break... Give me a break…

A glass of water

I saw this in one of the forwarded mail and thought it is quite true…

A lecturer was giving a lecture to his student on stress management. He raised a glass of water and asked the audience, "How heavy do you think this glass of water is?" The students' answers ranged from 20g to 500gm.

"It does not matter on the absolute weight. It depends on how long you hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it is Ok. If I hold it for an hour, I will have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you will have to call an ambulance. It is the exact same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."

"If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, we will not be able to carry on, the burden becoming increasingly heavier. What you have to do is to put the glass down, rest for a while before holding it up again." We have to put down the burden periodically, so that we can be refreshed and are able to carry on.

So before you return home from work tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it back home. You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you are having now on your shoulders, let it down for a moment if you can. Pick it up again later when you have rested.... Rest and relax. Life is short, enjoy it!!

A glass of water... how heavy it is? Depends on how long you hold it...

Autumn

An autumn sunset - taken at a seaside while having a cup of coffee with friends

It is autumn now in Australia, the second autumn I spend here. These few weeks are seasons inter change period, from summer to autumn, so it is quite hard to predict the weather. Even the forecast weather couldn’t help much in predicting the weather. It can be raining in the morning, cloudy in the afternoon, sunny in the evening and thunderstorm late night, four seasons in a day. It sounds odd, but it did happened 2 days ago here in Sydney, Australia. This unpredictable weather drives everyone crazy in the sense that people don’t know what to wear. Having known that it will be raining and quite cold, everyone wears scarfs and jackets to uni, but who knows it turned out a sunny perhaps a hot day, and vice versa. Anyway, few weeks later the weather will be more stable and that is the time I like the most.

Out of the 4 seasons, I would say I like autumn the most, or I should say autumn in Sydney. I wouldn’t know how much I love the weather here before I came. I find the weather in autumn suits me the most. Not too hot yet not too cold either. I love wearing a t-shirt with a denim jacket or just a long sleeve shirt during autumn, or even just a t-shirt will do. The sky is so colourful during sunsets in autumn. Enjoying watching the sky while I am walking back from my uni to the train station after a long tiring day. Although the flourish lush flowers and leafs are going to fade away I still find it quite nice in its own way. It is wonderful to see the leafs turning from green to golden colour, from golden colour to red before they fell off, leaving the empty leafless tree trunk a cold lonely depressing winter.

Why Civil Engineering?

I am currently doing 2nd year of civil engineering at Sydney University. Although it is my second year here, but sometimes I still wondering the reasons I am doing civil engineering instead of any other courses. As many other people, I am a fickle minded person when it comes to making decision in several things, the very first thing is studies.

If I am ask what is the course or career I most interested in, I would say anything to do with biology. I used to dream of becoming a doctor since I was very very young.. may be since I was in kindergarten. My dreams kept alive till I finished my form 5, before I enrolled myself in Taylor’s College. All the time my result wasn’t too bad yet not very good as well, I would say this is the most headache problem… not too good not too bad.. stuck in the middle. And because of that I dare not enrolled to a bio class; everyone knows, for medicine, you must be really good to get enrolled. So I picked those so called ‘flexible’ subjects in my foundation year which suited me the most while I am quite uncertain what profession to study in uni. According to the counsellor that attended me, with those ‘flexible’ subjects I can apply for any kind of courses, medicine, engineering, law, business or economics etc. I doubted that for so long.. never heard of that so called ‘flexible’ subjects before. Anyway, because of my uncertainty, I chose to trust her…

When it is time to fill in the application form for university, I suffered again. What should I fill in? I knew I can never get a medicine offer from any university with those ‘so so’ results. Pharmacy is not a bad idea but my result is at the fringe of the requirement. Dangerous… Shit… stuck in the middle again. Law? No way. My language fluency and ability say no. Business, finance, IT, accounting or economics? Er… not interested. But I know these are the professions most wanted everywhere on earth. But still, I am not interested wor. Music? Tough question. I love music so much but couldn’t convince my parents to allow me to do that. Some say cannot make big money as well. Whatever… What I want then? I don’t know. I then seek for suggestions from my parents. They asked me to consider engineering. Well, engineering… not bad… sounds interesting… but what engineering? The first thing came to my mind was civil engineering. I thought it is quite good in a way that Malaysia is still a developing country and needs this kind of profession. So, I made up my decision and go for civil engineering, bravely.

Here I am!!! In the second year of my degree. Loving it and enjoying it. I’ll be a civil engineer in a few years time. Perhaps, that’s why I ‘chose’ civil engineering…

Thats me

Finally

Hie… everyone… finally I have set up my first ever blog. Actually I wanted to set up my own blog ages ago but all this while I just don’t have the patient and determination to do it. Hopefully I will have time to post stuffs here and keep this blog alive.