
但是好像少了东风......
in the arms of the angel... fly away from here...
It has been quite a tough week for me, not knowing how my future lies, guessing and hoping that I will survive this latest ecomony crunch!
But seriously I didnt see this coming at all! Just not too long ago, may be a month back or so, my company just sent out an assurance email to each and every staffs of Coffey around the world, saying that we are doing fine and encourage all the staffs to work harder and gain more work and NOT to get too worried about the economy crunch or retrenchment etc, and also announced that Coffey has the biggest revenue for the past 6 months since their establishment. And in one other email, the CEO of the company also announced that Coffey has just formed another new subsidiary company called Coffey Rail and win a big project in London, worth 900 million dollars or so...
And then out of a sudden we have this 'emergency' staff meeting invite sent out at 9.30pm the night before, informing that the company is not doing very good and 'unfortunately' the company has to make certain 'cognitive action' to bring the business forward. In a more ugly sentence, the company is doing not as good as before and someone need to be sacrificed/made redundant/fired. And this is the first time Coffey doing this since its establishment at 1960.
From my understanding, the Coffey branch here in Brisbane is actually doing very good compared to other branches in Australia, and we are actually dragging all other branches in Australia. And if so, I think it is very very very unfair to all our staffs in this office!
First of all, if the company is not doing 'so well', then why announce that the company is earning more than ever? Why sent out this assurance email? Why still hiring staffs in the past couple of months? For an instant, it seems that this 'economy crunch' perhaps is just an 'excuse' or 'good reason' for big companies to execute this redundancy exercise.
I was depressed, I was having this constant mental tortoring, I was very anxious for the last whole week. But who wasnt?
I'm lucky, I survived. But some didnt. And I really feel sad/bad for them although I havent been long in the company.
Perhaps thats life, a handful of people made some stupid decisions > economy crunch > a lot of people lose their job, lose their house, lose their life, lose a lot of money, got stuck in deep shit > many move on, fight on and see another day light > some never get out from the shit forever > some... the list goes on...
Hope this will never happen anytime soon in the future... at least not in the forth coming couple of months!
Ok. Finish grumbling. I'll move on.
-I know my working hours will be long - construction work in Malaysia is usually 10/7, conservatively.
-I know I will have to spend hell lots of money just to get a Kancil (with the same ammount of money I can probably owned a Camry in Aus assuming RM1:AUS$1).
-My starting salary will not be as 'lofty' as what I'm getting now.
-I can NEVER have the luxurious benefits that Coffey (my company) is currently providing. Coffey would fully sponsor my Master tuition fee if I ever want to do it.
-The quality of life of my next generation will be different - have to stay at house all the time to stay away from ever increasing kidnapping, rapping and robbing.
-The quality of my life will be different - I will have to save all my earnings and send my children oversea for education to widen their exposure (I know it is not REALLY necessary but I never trust the education system in Boleh land, please agree with me - it is a fact).
-My health will be different - have to breath in the romantic haze from Indo once a year (if lucky, otherwise twice, thrice?)
-Unlike Australian government (giving out AUS$ 21 000 for first home buyers at this economic crunch period), the Boleh land government wont do a shit other than dropping a few milli bucks on the petrol.
-And the list goes on...
I know I have been coping well with this over the 18 years or so when I was back in the Boleh land. Back then I didn't have a choice but to cope. But now possessing an Australia PR visa, I can very much dictate/decide/change my life in the future. With all the possible dramas that I stated above, it seems that the dicision whether to stay on or not is not difficult to make. But infact, it is atually not!
The only and ONLY reason I'm still refusing to make a call on the dicision is my parents and my dearie. Is this the place they are meant to be? Is this the life they wanted? Is this the best possible solution to have a better life? Is this a wise choice?
Then I look at my 2 topnotch grandpas. They both came to Malaysia all the way from China almost 70-80 years ago, leaving behind their families, friends (wonder is there any back then), home, everything and never look back. Only for a reason - to have (or try to have) a better life! And I am 100% sure if they didnt make a move back then, I am probably now working as a farmer or hawker! Forget about writing in English.
With the same intention but different era, if they can do it back then, why can't I? Why can't we?
The clock continues to tick......