I supposed I have always been a very aggresive and passionate person. I would argue all the way, standby my principle, fight for my rights, do whatever I could, including hurting people around me (including myself) along the way, just to achieve my goal.
Most of the time I succeeded, with pride, at least on the outside. But deep down I knew if I could be more 'gentle' or if I could approach things differently, perhaps I might not be able to achieve my goal, but I would not make things that difficult for people around me, including myself.
When I just started my current job I was pushing the client, challenging all the aspects of the project, asking a lot of whys. And if I dont agree with any of the issues, I would argue all the way to make my point or until I am convinced. But that was then.
As the days gone by, along with all the ups and downs, I guess I am now a very laid back person. In short, I would sit back and listen rather than questioning and being pushy. At times I might feel sceptical towards something, but I would still prefer to ease up and chill. May be thats good for my heart, but I am feeling I am losing a lil bit of my own character. Apparently this doesnt only happen during my working hours, but has also affected my personality in a whole!
I guess I am now more a retroactive person... Have I really really lost my passion?
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By the way, I am very pleased to find out someone is doing great and is in good hands :)
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Perhaps it's time for your heart to rest after years of fighting.
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